After a long day on Wednesday, I knew Thursday was going to be another busy one. Traveling around in the morning to visit my off-site students, a normal busy day and then a staff meeting after school. This meant I didn't leave work til after 4. My brother's team had a game about 30 minutes away from my house and I debated all day about whether I wanted to go. I ended up going and had fun. However, that also meant that I had zero time to get any exercise in that day. That very rarely happens and I felt sorta guilty but I figured one day wouldn't kill me. After all, I had lost another pound that week, I had forced myself to go for a walk after conferences and I was hardly tempted by bad food anymore.
So, in my email to Renee' that night to update her on my life, I told her that I didn't do anything. I usually tell her about my workouts so I knew she would be suspicious if I just didn't say anything. Well, she did exactly what I needed her to do, although I didn't know it. She told me that, no matter what, I have to find a way to get something active in every day. Even if it is just 10 minutes. I knew she was right and I love that she "yelled" at me. I get comfortable way too easy. It's how I've gotten myself in trouble before with weight loss. In some ways, I think it is how I sabotage myself. Yes, I am definitely guilty of that. So, to have someone remind me that I can't let all my hard work go to waste, is awesome. It's what I need from time to time to keep myself on track and stay active. The other funny part?? Other than kinda nodding my head in shame when I read her response, I didn't get upset. A year ago if someone had written something like that to me, no matter how good natured it was intended to be, I would have been so upset for the rest of the day. Guess it really is a new me!
Friday was also an interesting day. Definitely tired and feeling lazy from the week. A co-worker's husband brought in donuts but, know what?? They didn't even smell appetizing. What an amazing feeling! I went to a counselor luncheon at an Italian restaurant that afternoon. Me and Italian food can be a dangerous combination. I LOVE anything with pasta, sauce and cheese. But, I knew I didn't need to go crazy. I had a decent amount of salad and stuck mostly with chicken. The two pasta dishes looked delicious so I took one bite of each one just to satisfy my taste buds. Funny thing - one bite was enough. And, for dessert, I stuck with fresh fruit and my york peppermint patties. I really am a new person!
That evening I was excited to see a couple of my friends from my previous job. We participated in a Beer Run and had a blast! I wore a tutu and made a complete fool out of myself and I didn't even care! A year ago, I never would have done anything like this, nor would I have put on a tutu.
I have finally found those things called self confidence and self esteem that really make life worth living. I absolutely have (with a lot of help and support) created a better version of myself. I am happy, healthy and living my life. Although there are still so many things I still have to force myself to do, every day I make a little bit of progress and it feels great!!